Words About Myself

I never want to admit it to myself,
Yet I always know.
I long for a feeling
And when I believe it's there I won't let it go.
I hide because I can't face it.
I'll ruin it so that you can erase it.
Let me go because I won't.
I never have the power in me.

I never can do the dirty work.
I can't get my hands dirty.
       That's your job.